Its very much been a frustrating month, where I have been up and down in terms of my writing. Do personal issues have an impact? I think so. But in my case it has mostly been a negative one, apart from the last week or so. I often find other things to busy my time with, rather than face the frustration of the blank page or unfinished story.
The month started on a high note, with my column coming out, another one well received by those that follow it. We also had our Open Mic night for Writers Group, and I chose to read one of my slightly older pieces. Although some of the group had heard it before, I still received positive comments from both the group and others attending the evening, so a good boost to my confidence. A new competition was announced, so something new to work on. I have a few competitions that I now want to enter so have made sure that I've had the time to work on all the pieces. I've put my novel to one side for now until I feel in a better place to do it justice, and instead am using the short story competitions to give me focus and get my writing hopefully back on track.
'Writing is individual , trust and find your own style and write about what you know. As with reading, its important to set aside time to do it. And when things get tough, remember that perseverance is power' Lucinda Slater
I was inspired by the words above, and coupled with the words of encouragement received from the author, a fellow writer on Twitter, its empowered me to continue. Its amazing what a few words of advice and wishing good luck with your writing, either from a complete stranger, or a friend can do, as well as the realisation that I'm not alone in my troubles and ways, so I should really stop punishing myself. Although there have been days over the month where I've struggled with motivation, preferring to read or generally procrastinate than write, on other days I've almost forced myself to put words on a page. By sitting at my desk and typing up what I've done so far, its not only made me feel better, its also done the trick! I'm the only one stopping myself and although sometimes there is a wall and I can't write through my emotions, there have been some good days!
'Surround yourself with things that make you feel happy, that are important to you and help to inspire you'
I have definitely taken this on board, and find that a creative work space has transported me to the zone that I want to be in. I still have things that I want to do, to help me further, but I've at least made a good start. Next on the list is a magnetic board so that I can start to plan out visually where my stories are going, and I hope that almost going back to basics on my novel will help me find the inspiration again that ignited the idea in the first place. In the meantime, two short story first drafts are done and I've made a start on the editing, with another story still ongoing, so not bad considering how the month started off! Its a real positive having specific deadlines and themes to work on. Maybe this is my style of writing? If I were to treat my novel in the same way and write more in blocks, it might help, alongside the better plan to start off with! I've also already written my column for next month, as well as starting on a couple of other ideas for next year, so the small steps seem to be working well. I'm trying my hand at writing some ad hoc blog posts on different topics and interesting points of view, so these will be shared when I feel the need, Sometimes I just feel I have to get out what I need to say, whatever that may be. But its also refreshing, putting more detail in to one thing, rather than as part of the monthly blog, so keep an eye out!
My new discovery this month (and also distraction) has been Netgalley, I'd heard it mentioned on various Facebook groups and having now found it, think its great! So far I've been approved for three books, and some will not be published until next year. For me its also learning more about the way the world of publishing works, with galleys and ARCs, I'm enjoying picking things up along the way! Over the last month or so I've also been taking part in Faber Academy's 'Quickfic' competition. You are given a theme each week (on a Friday morning) and you have to write 250 words using that prompt, to be submitted by the middle of that afternoon. Its been really interesting so far, reading the winning entries as well as seeing what I come up with. Although I've yet to be picked as a winner, its getting me writing something which is the main thing!
Lastly I've had another exciting idea for a story. I'm not sure yet how long it will pan out to be, but I've visited the location of where I plan to set it, taken photos as well as creating a board on Pinterest. Funnily enough it came out of a manuscript evening at Writers Group, so it really goes to show that ideas can come from anywhere, and for the first time in a while, I'm excited about something. Research has started, so looking forward to seeing how it goes!
So as this month draws to a close and Christmas is speeding towards us, I will make every effort to get as much writing done as I can around the general busyness of the festive season. but I'm at least feeling much more positive.
Monday, 30 November 2015
Tuesday, 27 October 2015
October 2015- losing vision?
After all this time thinking I was doing okay, I've now come to realise what I'm doing wrong. First off I have yet to learn the real task of editing. I've been very much in the habit of finishing a piece and then thinking it finished, without really revisiting it. Although I've been lucky and had a few pieces 'published', I now understand why my pieces have yet to be picked when I enter competitions, the lack of editing and this is what makes me an amateur writer at this stage of my journey.
The month started much as the previous had ended, on a positive, but I feel sad to say that is now I am feeling as another month draws to a close. So lets at least start on the positives! I picked up my novel once again, but instead of worrying about where each paragraph will fit, I started focusing on just getting the words and thoughts out. When I began writing out my idea, unsure of whether it would be a novel (and although I'm calling it that, I'm still not sure), I was originally trying to work in chronological order of the story, But now I'm beginning to wonder if that's why I kept getting stuck.So now I'm attempting to write as it comes and just enjoy the task of writing and losing myself in the world I'm working to create. Each time I look at it, and those occasions have lessened as the month's gone on, I'm trying to find different angles, parts that I can expand on, teach the reader more about, so now involving more detailed research to ensure that everything is right. In a attempt to reconnect with my writing, I realise I now have to go back to the start, having lost my way a bit, and work out the basics: What is my story about and where is it going?? Only then I think will I feel the inspiration I felt at the beginning and find the belief in myself and what I'm trying to say. I certainly feel that I've lost my writing mojo at the moment. Its been coming very much in fits and starts, and along side some personal issues that I'm currently facing, I believe that's why I'm feeling so disheartened. But I do feel determined not to let it take over....
I've just finished re-reading 'How to be a Writer' by Stewart Ferris and its been an eye opener the second time round. I've taken in everything, and realised what I'm doing wrong and what I need to do better. I never thought it would be an easy journey, but I will do all I can to push myself to carry on. I looked more into my website idea, but turns out it isn't as simple as I thought (when is anything?!). It works to create your own page, much like this blog, but I'm looking for something different, maybe a Facebook page? I will continue to look for other ideas and do further research, so watch this space!
'There will be times on this journey, all you will see is darkness. But out there somewhere, daylight finds you if you keep believing'
'Dream it, Believe it, Achieve it'
October 13th marked a year since I started this blog, and despite not being in a great place at the moment, I am proud of how far I've come in that time and how much I've learnt along the way. I may not have finished my novel, but I've still written more than I ever would have thought, and still going! I would be no where as an aspiring writer without the support of family, friends and other writers, both as part of our group and online, I continue to be inspired by the advice and support. I'm still learning about what type of writer I am. I've not yet mastered the editing, but I will get there. I need take everything I'm learning on board and take pride in what I'm doing, I was writing a piece as I intended, without going back and thinking it finished, entering competitions with pieces I may have rushed, so I shouldn't be surprised that I'm not being shortlisted. I need to put the same emphasis on my column. By writing more in advance, I then give myself the opportunity to go back and review and make changes.
Most of this has come about by my disappointment in relation to an online competition. I had the deadline and although I had two ideas for submissions, I didn't finish either of them, in turn missing the deadline. I left the work too late and then struggled to find the extra push I needed to get them done. Does this mean I'm not a writer?? I really hope not. I spend all day whilst at work wishing I was at home and had the time to write, yet when I am and do, the motivation disappears and I end up frustrated and upset, feeling I can't do it anymore. There was a positive out of the whole experience in that I learned more about the editing process for myself and expanded on an idea that I'd had a while ago, which is still in progress.
I'm working on ways to bring myself out of the current slump. Firstly, stop waiting for inspiration! I will never write if I just sit and wait for it to arrive, I have to find it. I've put some of my personal feelings and troubles into poems, as well as angles within a story, both as a way of getting things into words as a way of dealing with issues, but also just to keep writing, however small. I bought a variety of poetry books on a recent trip to Oxford (where else??!) in an attempt to read more as well as write more, gain more depth to my words. Poetry is where I started after all, and I feel I have let this slide and be forgotten. Other avenues have included trying the weekly #quckfic competition that Faber Academy run. It's 250 words using a prompt each time, and submitted the same day.. Although I didn't win, I had great fun trying, pleased with what I produced and the fact it just got me writing. Definitely going to keep trying each week, see what happens! As always, Writers group is a sea of inspiration each time I go, and even if I don't decide to read, I still come home feeling more upbeat then before I arrived. I've done some work on personalising my room/ writing space more, in the hope that it will also have a positive effect. I've used pictures, postcards and quotes to make the whole area more happy and inspiring. And I can already see how this is slowly working by the fact that it inspired a blog post all of its own. This is something that I'm keen to continue as when I feel that I have something extra to share. My next step is to purchase or create a storyboard of some description in order to start collating all photos, notes and ideas for my novel. My hope is that if I can visualise the story and how it progresses, it will then help me to pick up my pen and continue to write... And lastly I have finally started to use Pinterest in a more constructive way, much like an online storyboard, so will see how that helps too,
And so, I may have ended the month feeling downhearted, but I'm determined to at least try and overcome my doubts and find my mojo again, I'll keep you updated with how I get on!
'Create your own story'
The month started much as the previous had ended, on a positive, but I feel sad to say that is now I am feeling as another month draws to a close. So lets at least start on the positives! I picked up my novel once again, but instead of worrying about where each paragraph will fit, I started focusing on just getting the words and thoughts out. When I began writing out my idea, unsure of whether it would be a novel (and although I'm calling it that, I'm still not sure), I was originally trying to work in chronological order of the story, But now I'm beginning to wonder if that's why I kept getting stuck.So now I'm attempting to write as it comes and just enjoy the task of writing and losing myself in the world I'm working to create. Each time I look at it, and those occasions have lessened as the month's gone on, I'm trying to find different angles, parts that I can expand on, teach the reader more about, so now involving more detailed research to ensure that everything is right. In a attempt to reconnect with my writing, I realise I now have to go back to the start, having lost my way a bit, and work out the basics: What is my story about and where is it going?? Only then I think will I feel the inspiration I felt at the beginning and find the belief in myself and what I'm trying to say. I certainly feel that I've lost my writing mojo at the moment. Its been coming very much in fits and starts, and along side some personal issues that I'm currently facing, I believe that's why I'm feeling so disheartened. But I do feel determined not to let it take over....
I've just finished re-reading 'How to be a Writer' by Stewart Ferris and its been an eye opener the second time round. I've taken in everything, and realised what I'm doing wrong and what I need to do better. I never thought it would be an easy journey, but I will do all I can to push myself to carry on. I looked more into my website idea, but turns out it isn't as simple as I thought (when is anything?!). It works to create your own page, much like this blog, but I'm looking for something different, maybe a Facebook page? I will continue to look for other ideas and do further research, so watch this space!
'There will be times on this journey, all you will see is darkness. But out there somewhere, daylight finds you if you keep believing'
'Dream it, Believe it, Achieve it'
October 13th marked a year since I started this blog, and despite not being in a great place at the moment, I am proud of how far I've come in that time and how much I've learnt along the way. I may not have finished my novel, but I've still written more than I ever would have thought, and still going! I would be no where as an aspiring writer without the support of family, friends and other writers, both as part of our group and online, I continue to be inspired by the advice and support. I'm still learning about what type of writer I am. I've not yet mastered the editing, but I will get there. I need take everything I'm learning on board and take pride in what I'm doing, I was writing a piece as I intended, without going back and thinking it finished, entering competitions with pieces I may have rushed, so I shouldn't be surprised that I'm not being shortlisted. I need to put the same emphasis on my column. By writing more in advance, I then give myself the opportunity to go back and review and make changes.
Most of this has come about by my disappointment in relation to an online competition. I had the deadline and although I had two ideas for submissions, I didn't finish either of them, in turn missing the deadline. I left the work too late and then struggled to find the extra push I needed to get them done. Does this mean I'm not a writer?? I really hope not. I spend all day whilst at work wishing I was at home and had the time to write, yet when I am and do, the motivation disappears and I end up frustrated and upset, feeling I can't do it anymore. There was a positive out of the whole experience in that I learned more about the editing process for myself and expanded on an idea that I'd had a while ago, which is still in progress.
And so, I may have ended the month feeling downhearted, but I'm determined to at least try and overcome my doubts and find my mojo again, I'll keep you updated with how I get on!
'Create your own story'
Wednesday, 21 October 2015
A creative space?
I'm starting to realise that how I am as a person and the surroundings I create for myself could be the reason my writing is the way it is. I seem to somehow lack some personality and creative flow and I believe that it's down to my nature of everything having to be just so.
I feel the time may have come to some changes and free something, in the hope that it will have a positive effect on my writing as a result. Take my bedroom/writing space as a first example. The walls aren't bare by any means. I have photos and pictures up as any normal person would, but everything is just too neat. I feel the need to be surrounded by pictures, postcards, anything that can inspire me and not just contained to one small noticeboard (as is the current situation).
Taking note of a friend's living room, it was filled with books, pictures and quirky furniture. I absolutely loved it. Now I know we are not all the same, and in no way am I trying to recreate someone else's home (firstly their home is older and has more character features than my new build) but it did highlight what my own space is lacking. And so onto the task of personalising and creating a more inspiring space with what I have.I just hope the OCD doesn't take over and tidy it all away again!
I feel the time may have come to some changes and free something, in the hope that it will have a positive effect on my writing as a result. Take my bedroom/writing space as a first example. The walls aren't bare by any means. I have photos and pictures up as any normal person would, but everything is just too neat. I feel the need to be surrounded by pictures, postcards, anything that can inspire me and not just contained to one small noticeboard (as is the current situation).
Taking note of a friend's living room, it was filled with books, pictures and quirky furniture. I absolutely loved it. Now I know we are not all the same, and in no way am I trying to recreate someone else's home (firstly their home is older and has more character features than my new build) but it did highlight what my own space is lacking. And so onto the task of personalising and creating a more inspiring space with what I have.I just hope the OCD doesn't take over and tidy it all away again!
Wednesday, 30 September 2015
September 2015
September has been a funny old month, but an interesting part of my journey as a writer so far. As for most aspiring writers, it has been one of ups and downs, but feel I've learned quite a lot along the way.
It started slowly, but at least I was writing. I've made a start on my Madrid story, inspired by my recent trip there and feels good to look further afield for setting allowing the story to go in a completely different direction The next column was written, submitted and published, and the next one is all ready to go. I'll admit that I've chosen a couple of deeper issues and subjects, but they are things that are important to me, and I'm learning not to be scared as a writer and share my thoughts. This has be proved a positive this month with the column well received both by Writers Group and by friends on Facebook.
I'm still throwing the website idea around, having found a way of setting it up for free, but just haven't had the time to really start looking at it in detail. Its something I'm still keen to pursue, not just as a way of me sharing my own work, but also for other aspiring writers too. Social media- Facebook, Twitter and even my blog- are all part of publicising yourself as a writer, so at least I'm going in the right direction, sharing thoughts, some work and articles and links that I find interesting and could be useful to others. I'm still constantly inspired by other authors whether by reading their published novels, articles or useful tips. As a writer I believe you are forever learning from those around you, and I make sure I tell them that too (via whatever social media is appropriate!) But it can also be very distracting (something I struggle with), like a vortex of procrastination, so the secret is to try and get the balance right and not to let it take over from the real task of writing.
'Cherish your writing sessions'
Again, I'm struggling to finish things that I've already started. I found it hard getting back into things after a break, and although there's been plenty of scribbling for new ideas, I'm not sure how to get the spark back to finish other projects. I've been very up and down with my writing, often making excuses and finding other things to fill the time. Some days I seem to have a good lunch break, feeling that I've achieved quite a bit, but then not so good once I get home in the evenings. Its so frustrating. Its been a month of good intentions but feel that I haven't achieved as much as I could have. I've read lots, taken useful notes and had a few new ideas, but looking back I don't feel I've done much actual writing. Weekends and evenings have been filled with various things and all of a sudden we have reached the end of the month, so I need to try and take more out of the things I do or just the everyday, there are stories and ideas everywhere, I just need to keep my eyes open to them. So time for no more excuses!! I need to get on with the task of doing some actual writing...
No writer has problems starting stories, and may not even have problems finishing them (apart from me at the moment!) but its the middle that is the story graveyard, littered with corpses of books, blog posts, articles. We need to learn the hard task of writing through the mess. That's the part I'm finding the most difficult. Saying that, I have revisited a couple of abandoned projects, with a small spark of renewed enthusiasm, so its the time that is needed. I'm still learning to make the most out of the spare time that I do have, and attempt to focus on using it to write, even just a small amount. I've had a few nights recently where my brain and thoughts don't seem to switch off, and haven't been like that for a while, so feel that something maybe slowly creeping back. Not that I'm complaining, just have to make sure I note everything down before it disappears, even if it means delaying sleep..
I've been thinking a lot recently about what I want out of life, especially work related. My ultimate dream would be to become a full-time writer, but as I'm still in the relatively early days, that dream is a long way off from becoming a reality, although I am pleased with the start I've made. I'm still learning about what type of writer I am or indeed, will become, and finding a voice of my own, but I'm certainly having a good time trying! So with that in mind, I have to think seriously about what I can do to get there, but also be sensible with the choices that I make along the way. I need to take more pride in my work and do the whole process properly, particularly when it comes to editing. Not just with fiction, but take more time over pieces, columns etc to make sure they are right, and don't leave everything until the last minute to do!
'Remember being a writer is something to be proud of ' Next time my confidence takes a dip ( as it often does), I just need to remind myself of what's great about me and my hobby. I did manage to finish some poems this month, for a couple of friends birthdays and had a piece published in an online magazine, so I need to celebrate each achievement, however big or small. Keeping our writing to ourselves makes us writers, sharing it with others and having it published (even in a small way) means we are authors.
But deadlines... other than the column, I have yet to get into the habit of setting any. But I have now realised, perhaps a bit late in the day, that I've been doing just that with this blog, choosing the very last day of the month to type up and publish it. I spend the rest of the month collecting notes and thoughts, building up something to say and share. So now I just need to start applying the same idea to my writing projects, I might actually finish something then! I will try and use competitions to help with this too, which reminds me, a deadline is fast approaching, so better get on with my entry!
And so on the last days of the month, I finally feel excited, that I'm getting my writing mojo back. Despite the new ideas recently I haven't been happy with what I have or indeed, haven't done. I just hope this feeling isn't short-lived and I can start to focus again and remember why I write.
It started slowly, but at least I was writing. I've made a start on my Madrid story, inspired by my recent trip there and feels good to look further afield for setting allowing the story to go in a completely different direction The next column was written, submitted and published, and the next one is all ready to go. I'll admit that I've chosen a couple of deeper issues and subjects, but they are things that are important to me, and I'm learning not to be scared as a writer and share my thoughts. This has be proved a positive this month with the column well received both by Writers Group and by friends on Facebook.
I'm still throwing the website idea around, having found a way of setting it up for free, but just haven't had the time to really start looking at it in detail. Its something I'm still keen to pursue, not just as a way of me sharing my own work, but also for other aspiring writers too. Social media- Facebook, Twitter and even my blog- are all part of publicising yourself as a writer, so at least I'm going in the right direction, sharing thoughts, some work and articles and links that I find interesting and could be useful to others. I'm still constantly inspired by other authors whether by reading their published novels, articles or useful tips. As a writer I believe you are forever learning from those around you, and I make sure I tell them that too (via whatever social media is appropriate!) But it can also be very distracting (something I struggle with), like a vortex of procrastination, so the secret is to try and get the balance right and not to let it take over from the real task of writing.
'Cherish your writing sessions'
Again, I'm struggling to finish things that I've already started. I found it hard getting back into things after a break, and although there's been plenty of scribbling for new ideas, I'm not sure how to get the spark back to finish other projects. I've been very up and down with my writing, often making excuses and finding other things to fill the time. Some days I seem to have a good lunch break, feeling that I've achieved quite a bit, but then not so good once I get home in the evenings. Its so frustrating. Its been a month of good intentions but feel that I haven't achieved as much as I could have. I've read lots, taken useful notes and had a few new ideas, but looking back I don't feel I've done much actual writing. Weekends and evenings have been filled with various things and all of a sudden we have reached the end of the month, so I need to try and take more out of the things I do or just the everyday, there are stories and ideas everywhere, I just need to keep my eyes open to them. So time for no more excuses!! I need to get on with the task of doing some actual writing...
No writer has problems starting stories, and may not even have problems finishing them (apart from me at the moment!) but its the middle that is the story graveyard, littered with corpses of books, blog posts, articles. We need to learn the hard task of writing through the mess. That's the part I'm finding the most difficult. Saying that, I have revisited a couple of abandoned projects, with a small spark of renewed enthusiasm, so its the time that is needed. I'm still learning to make the most out of the spare time that I do have, and attempt to focus on using it to write, even just a small amount. I've had a few nights recently where my brain and thoughts don't seem to switch off, and haven't been like that for a while, so feel that something maybe slowly creeping back. Not that I'm complaining, just have to make sure I note everything down before it disappears, even if it means delaying sleep..
I've been thinking a lot recently about what I want out of life, especially work related. My ultimate dream would be to become a full-time writer, but as I'm still in the relatively early days, that dream is a long way off from becoming a reality, although I am pleased with the start I've made. I'm still learning about what type of writer I am or indeed, will become, and finding a voice of my own, but I'm certainly having a good time trying! So with that in mind, I have to think seriously about what I can do to get there, but also be sensible with the choices that I make along the way. I need to take more pride in my work and do the whole process properly, particularly when it comes to editing. Not just with fiction, but take more time over pieces, columns etc to make sure they are right, and don't leave everything until the last minute to do!
'Remember being a writer is something to be proud of ' Next time my confidence takes a dip ( as it often does), I just need to remind myself of what's great about me and my hobby. I did manage to finish some poems this month, for a couple of friends birthdays and had a piece published in an online magazine, so I need to celebrate each achievement, however big or small. Keeping our writing to ourselves makes us writers, sharing it with others and having it published (even in a small way) means we are authors.
But deadlines... other than the column, I have yet to get into the habit of setting any. But I have now realised, perhaps a bit late in the day, that I've been doing just that with this blog, choosing the very last day of the month to type up and publish it. I spend the rest of the month collecting notes and thoughts, building up something to say and share. So now I just need to start applying the same idea to my writing projects, I might actually finish something then! I will try and use competitions to help with this too, which reminds me, a deadline is fast approaching, so better get on with my entry!
And so on the last days of the month, I finally feel excited, that I'm getting my writing mojo back. Despite the new ideas recently I haven't been happy with what I have or indeed, haven't done. I just hope this feeling isn't short-lived and I can start to focus again and remember why I write.
Saturday, 22 August 2015
August 2015
Now I realise that this is at least a week early, but off to sunny Spain in a few days so wanted to get this done before we went!
Reading over all my previous posts, I found that I had started with a certain voice, almost like I was telling a story, and feel this has been lost over time and become more of a 'I did this...' I think a blog almost needs a bit of both. After all, my main reason for starting this was to share my own writing journey and opinions, so I guess that I need to just try and get the balance right! I feel that I'm still trying to find my voice in anything that I write, unsure of what that is yet, so will just keep writing in the hope that it comes out.
'Don't make nothing of what you've achieved'
Its so true, and something that I find as a writer hard to do! I'm constantly beating myself up if I don't think I've done enough, or indeed anything at all! I always start out with plans of what I want to do, and feel all fired up, but then (much like me sitting here doing this) carrying them out is the hardest part. I'm the kind of person who gets easily distracted with excuses such as 'I'll just do this..' and I've lost half an hour already and not written a word. Its so frustrating. I think its just the way I am, as I'm like it at work too (and where as I get bored at work, I love writing), so maybe a change in my mindset is required if I'm going to move forward!
'Write to suit yourself, and keep on writing and re-writing until you can do more. Oh, and read. Never stop reading' Rachael English
Just one of the useful pieces of advice I have found and followed recently. So simple, but so effective to live by. Typing up what I've done so far of my 'novel' has brought back all the love I felt for the story as I was starting to write it. It's still a work in progress, but I can now see what I've got so far, so the next job is to edit some more, but into some kind of order so I can see clearly where to go next. I'm proud of what I've done so far though, as its the most I've written on one thing, and still not finished! I've also found renewed enthusiasm for my Oxford story. Like with many of my unfinished projects, I'm over excited at the start and love the idea, and then a little way in, hit a wall of some sort and don't come back to it for a bit. Thanks to a tip from my sister, this was a project I decided to pick up again and have done lots more research and looked at areas that I want to work on and include, in order to have a clearer idea of where I want the story to go. That's my trouble, I rush into getting all the thoughts down onto paper without much thought at the start of where a piece will end and what will happen. Something else to continue working on. That said, I've tried to make time to work on a variety of projects rather than just getting stuck on one, in order to try and keep the ideas and writing fresher, and seems to be working!
One thought to try and get me more focused on my writing, and blocking out everything else would be to go on a writing retreat or workshop of some description.Inspired by fellow writers, there's plenty available, its just a case of having the funds available to be able to take part in something like this.I would love to be able to spend a whole week, maybe longer in somewhere like the Gladstone Library or on one of the Arvon retreats, using the time just to write, nothing else, inspired by my surroundings as well as other attending writers. That's something that will have to wait for now, but never say never! I've had a month of small discoveries, the main one for me is setting myself up on Twitter. I knew it was there, just not the advantages of using it. Spurred on by a good friend and fellow writer (thank you!) I am now a tweeter and using it as a new way of expanding my social media and reaching a wider audience. I'm still a bit of a novice, but enjoying it so far, sending messages to other authors, and even getting some replies, so all very exciting! I've learnt that we are now in a time where if you want to do anything in life, you have to get yourself out there, which I'm slowly doing. Following other authors, some new to me and others who I have long admired, I've found that they too have their own blogs, to share thoughts and opinions as well as a place to do a bit of publicity. Like me, it is a way of getting things down and sharing the journey.
A few new ideas sparked over the last few weeks, thanks to a cultural and inspirational trip to London with a couple of fellow writers, lots of things to see and do, and sharing of ideas and thoughts. Sometimes all it needs is a change of scenery to get the pen moving! The next column was written, submitted and printed, I've done six in total now and still enjoying the moment when I see what I have written in print, knowing that a wider audience will see it. It may only be a small thing, but its a good start! Writing magazine has also been a fountain of knowledge that I've been delving into over the last few weeks, finding plenty of useful tips and information, as well as the interviews with other authors, which I find helpful in my own writing and where I'm going.There is a free competition that I'm hoping to enter, and the plan is to finish the pieces over the next couple of days, ready to submit before the deadline. Competitions can be useful, as they usually have some kind of theme, sparking new ideas and at least giving a specific direction of where a piece needs to go, we will see if I can do it, but I'll certainly try, submitting to a deadline is something I will need to get used to for when the day comes that I have a publishing contract and an agent! In the words of a favourite author, I was a dreamer, but now I'm a doer and that day will come if I keep working at it.
So with my holiday fast approaching, (and I can't wait!) I already have my notebook packed, with an idea of a story floating around in my head, I hope being on location will only inspire me further as I discover the place behind the story, we will see!
Reading over all my previous posts, I found that I had started with a certain voice, almost like I was telling a story, and feel this has been lost over time and become more of a 'I did this...' I think a blog almost needs a bit of both. After all, my main reason for starting this was to share my own writing journey and opinions, so I guess that I need to just try and get the balance right! I feel that I'm still trying to find my voice in anything that I write, unsure of what that is yet, so will just keep writing in the hope that it comes out.
'Don't make nothing of what you've achieved'
Its so true, and something that I find as a writer hard to do! I'm constantly beating myself up if I don't think I've done enough, or indeed anything at all! I always start out with plans of what I want to do, and feel all fired up, but then (much like me sitting here doing this) carrying them out is the hardest part. I'm the kind of person who gets easily distracted with excuses such as 'I'll just do this..' and I've lost half an hour already and not written a word. Its so frustrating. I think its just the way I am, as I'm like it at work too (and where as I get bored at work, I love writing), so maybe a change in my mindset is required if I'm going to move forward!
'Write to suit yourself, and keep on writing and re-writing until you can do more. Oh, and read. Never stop reading' Rachael English
Just one of the useful pieces of advice I have found and followed recently. So simple, but so effective to live by. Typing up what I've done so far of my 'novel' has brought back all the love I felt for the story as I was starting to write it. It's still a work in progress, but I can now see what I've got so far, so the next job is to edit some more, but into some kind of order so I can see clearly where to go next. I'm proud of what I've done so far though, as its the most I've written on one thing, and still not finished! I've also found renewed enthusiasm for my Oxford story. Like with many of my unfinished projects, I'm over excited at the start and love the idea, and then a little way in, hit a wall of some sort and don't come back to it for a bit. Thanks to a tip from my sister, this was a project I decided to pick up again and have done lots more research and looked at areas that I want to work on and include, in order to have a clearer idea of where I want the story to go. That's my trouble, I rush into getting all the thoughts down onto paper without much thought at the start of where a piece will end and what will happen. Something else to continue working on. That said, I've tried to make time to work on a variety of projects rather than just getting stuck on one, in order to try and keep the ideas and writing fresher, and seems to be working!
One thought to try and get me more focused on my writing, and blocking out everything else would be to go on a writing retreat or workshop of some description.Inspired by fellow writers, there's plenty available, its just a case of having the funds available to be able to take part in something like this.I would love to be able to spend a whole week, maybe longer in somewhere like the Gladstone Library or on one of the Arvon retreats, using the time just to write, nothing else, inspired by my surroundings as well as other attending writers. That's something that will have to wait for now, but never say never! I've had a month of small discoveries, the main one for me is setting myself up on Twitter. I knew it was there, just not the advantages of using it. Spurred on by a good friend and fellow writer (thank you!) I am now a tweeter and using it as a new way of expanding my social media and reaching a wider audience. I'm still a bit of a novice, but enjoying it so far, sending messages to other authors, and even getting some replies, so all very exciting! I've learnt that we are now in a time where if you want to do anything in life, you have to get yourself out there, which I'm slowly doing. Following other authors, some new to me and others who I have long admired, I've found that they too have their own blogs, to share thoughts and opinions as well as a place to do a bit of publicity. Like me, it is a way of getting things down and sharing the journey.
A few new ideas sparked over the last few weeks, thanks to a cultural and inspirational trip to London with a couple of fellow writers, lots of things to see and do, and sharing of ideas and thoughts. Sometimes all it needs is a change of scenery to get the pen moving! The next column was written, submitted and printed, I've done six in total now and still enjoying the moment when I see what I have written in print, knowing that a wider audience will see it. It may only be a small thing, but its a good start! Writing magazine has also been a fountain of knowledge that I've been delving into over the last few weeks, finding plenty of useful tips and information, as well as the interviews with other authors, which I find helpful in my own writing and where I'm going.There is a free competition that I'm hoping to enter, and the plan is to finish the pieces over the next couple of days, ready to submit before the deadline. Competitions can be useful, as they usually have some kind of theme, sparking new ideas and at least giving a specific direction of where a piece needs to go, we will see if I can do it, but I'll certainly try, submitting to a deadline is something I will need to get used to for when the day comes that I have a publishing contract and an agent! In the words of a favourite author, I was a dreamer, but now I'm a doer and that day will come if I keep working at it.
So with my holiday fast approaching, (and I can't wait!) I already have my notebook packed, with an idea of a story floating around in my head, I hope being on location will only inspire me further as I discover the place behind the story, we will see!
Friday, 31 July 2015
July 2015
And so the month started much the same as the previous one ended. I started on some more short stories, varied ideas, spurred on by things seen around me. There is far less pressure now that I understand the format, and that each story does not need a definitive ending, or tell everything. Saying that, I have yet to finish any of them! But I have the whole summer ahead of me, with no choir or writers group, so I plan to work on some of my unfinished pieces, and hope that I'll at least complete one or two! This will then give me some more material for manuscript evenings when the term starts again. Attended the last manuscript evening and chose to read a new short story (that I actually finished so at least kept to what I said last month). This was after much doubting and under confidence in my work, so happy that I overcame that and received some lovely and constructive comments, and that's after all, what the group is for! I've been also trying to write more reviews on Goodreads each time I finish a book. Its a good practice of a different style of writing, and hopefully the authors will also get to see them!
I have now finished reading the Short Story workbook and found lots of useful tips and exercises to try out, so looking forward to experimenting with some other styles of writing. Part of me would love to do a proper writing course or a masters, but not having the funds available for either, believe that reading a variety of writing books can be just as beneficial. And who knows, maybe I'll get to go on one of those courses one day!
Just as the month started off well, it then slowed down a bit, frustratingly. I had a severe lack of confidence in my writing, and some days I drew a total blank. When I did try and write something, I thought it was rubbish and didn't like what I'd done, thinking it too simple and disjointed, losing the flow and the enthusiasm that I started with. I know that's what editing is for, but that wasn't going through my mind at the time! Inspiration is a bit like tiny flashes, which come and go. I start off all fired up with an idea and then everything seems to disappear for a bit, hence so many unfinished pieces. I've been questioning the reason as to why I even write or, if indeed I am a writer. Sometimes I don't think so, especially on the days when the words won't flow on the page. But the fact that I even have to ask and that I get so frustrated means its important to me, otherwise I'd just give up completely. Its better to scribble ideas, one line or a quote than force myself to carry on with something that my head's not in the right place for at the time. So therefore I have decided I'm an aspiring writer at present. So its been a rather slow month for large chunks of writing as I've been finding that I keep hitting a wall when I really want to write, and although there have been a few short bursts, not as much as I would like.
As I have neared the end of the month, there has been a slight shift, and in the positive direction! First I was inspired by one of my latest books, sparking lots of ideas and giving me the oomph back to get on with my writing. I've had a few days of annual leave, which I took especially to give me some more time to write. It was a bit slow to start with- the first day was taken up with jobs and appointments, even though I was feeling inspired by my book. The second day was one of fits and starts. Although surrounded by my notebooks, with so many started projects, it was hard to know where to start. I attempted to focus by staying in my room, away from the distractions of the TV and internet, but the house was almost too quiet and my mind once more blocked up. I did manage to start another birthday poem that I then finished a couple of days later, so at least it was something. I still have work to do on my writing space and working out what I need to keep me focused, a place where I know I can just disappear into my words on the page.
Although not sure if I can yet call myself a writer, I can definitely say that I am a reader. I spend as much time as I can (and sometimes when I know I should be writing) reading novels, magazines, biographies and useful books (note to self, don't forget poetry), glean what inspiration I can from them, whether that be a line, an idea or a quote, it all goes into my notebook for future reference. More recently these have also included what could be part of a story, such as a paragraph, so will be good to see where these can be fitted in, or maybe be a part of something new. That's how I'm not yet a writer in the full sense of the word, still in the very beginning stages as I have yet to find that place, both physically and mentally where I can sit and find my writing voice and the perseverance that goes with it. I may have lots of unfinished pieces, but at least I've started them. I'm tired of making excuses of why I'm not writing. The only thing that's stopping me is me.
With that in mind, the last few days have been very positive. I feel properly inspired for the first time in ages. A new story has been started, once more sparked from a novel that I'm currently reading. I can already visualise the characters so excited to see where they take me, and the journey seems to be currently going smoothly! Its about time that I learned to much more proactive. I've entered two pieces to a new online literary magazine, so will see in a few weeks if they have been accepted for publication in the first issue. If not, there's always future copies to be considered for. I have some kind of place for my writing, first this blog (so that's one checked off!) and then typing up the extra parts of my Cornwall story, adding to what I have already typed. I can see where I am with it, and what still needs work, and hopefully the spark of enthusiasm will come back. In the meantime I have my new story as well as another column to be working on, as well as a few other new ideas to explore. These include attempting to start an online page or magazine, where I can share thoughts and opinions as well as pieces of writing, inviting other writers to do the same. Its something I'm quite excited about, and hopefully I can report back next month as to how that's progressing. I've also started a daily post on my Facebook page of photos- small moments from each day- some that have inspired me, and some that I just like!
And so after a month of really struggling, as I reach the end of it, I'm once more inspired and keenly writing, long may it continue!
' Believe with all your heart that you will do what you are made to do'
I have now finished reading the Short Story workbook and found lots of useful tips and exercises to try out, so looking forward to experimenting with some other styles of writing. Part of me would love to do a proper writing course or a masters, but not having the funds available for either, believe that reading a variety of writing books can be just as beneficial. And who knows, maybe I'll get to go on one of those courses one day!
Just as the month started off well, it then slowed down a bit, frustratingly. I had a severe lack of confidence in my writing, and some days I drew a total blank. When I did try and write something, I thought it was rubbish and didn't like what I'd done, thinking it too simple and disjointed, losing the flow and the enthusiasm that I started with. I know that's what editing is for, but that wasn't going through my mind at the time! Inspiration is a bit like tiny flashes, which come and go. I start off all fired up with an idea and then everything seems to disappear for a bit, hence so many unfinished pieces. I've been questioning the reason as to why I even write or, if indeed I am a writer. Sometimes I don't think so, especially on the days when the words won't flow on the page. But the fact that I even have to ask and that I get so frustrated means its important to me, otherwise I'd just give up completely. Its better to scribble ideas, one line or a quote than force myself to carry on with something that my head's not in the right place for at the time. So therefore I have decided I'm an aspiring writer at present. So its been a rather slow month for large chunks of writing as I've been finding that I keep hitting a wall when I really want to write, and although there have been a few short bursts, not as much as I would like.
As I have neared the end of the month, there has been a slight shift, and in the positive direction! First I was inspired by one of my latest books, sparking lots of ideas and giving me the oomph back to get on with my writing. I've had a few days of annual leave, which I took especially to give me some more time to write. It was a bit slow to start with- the first day was taken up with jobs and appointments, even though I was feeling inspired by my book. The second day was one of fits and starts. Although surrounded by my notebooks, with so many started projects, it was hard to know where to start. I attempted to focus by staying in my room, away from the distractions of the TV and internet, but the house was almost too quiet and my mind once more blocked up. I did manage to start another birthday poem that I then finished a couple of days later, so at least it was something. I still have work to do on my writing space and working out what I need to keep me focused, a place where I know I can just disappear into my words on the page.
Although not sure if I can yet call myself a writer, I can definitely say that I am a reader. I spend as much time as I can (and sometimes when I know I should be writing) reading novels, magazines, biographies and useful books (note to self, don't forget poetry), glean what inspiration I can from them, whether that be a line, an idea or a quote, it all goes into my notebook for future reference. More recently these have also included what could be part of a story, such as a paragraph, so will be good to see where these can be fitted in, or maybe be a part of something new. That's how I'm not yet a writer in the full sense of the word, still in the very beginning stages as I have yet to find that place, both physically and mentally where I can sit and find my writing voice and the perseverance that goes with it. I may have lots of unfinished pieces, but at least I've started them. I'm tired of making excuses of why I'm not writing. The only thing that's stopping me is me.
With that in mind, the last few days have been very positive. I feel properly inspired for the first time in ages. A new story has been started, once more sparked from a novel that I'm currently reading. I can already visualise the characters so excited to see where they take me, and the journey seems to be currently going smoothly! Its about time that I learned to much more proactive. I've entered two pieces to a new online literary magazine, so will see in a few weeks if they have been accepted for publication in the first issue. If not, there's always future copies to be considered for. I have some kind of place for my writing, first this blog (so that's one checked off!) and then typing up the extra parts of my Cornwall story, adding to what I have already typed. I can see where I am with it, and what still needs work, and hopefully the spark of enthusiasm will come back. In the meantime I have my new story as well as another column to be working on, as well as a few other new ideas to explore. These include attempting to start an online page or magazine, where I can share thoughts and opinions as well as pieces of writing, inviting other writers to do the same. Its something I'm quite excited about, and hopefully I can report back next month as to how that's progressing. I've also started a daily post on my Facebook page of photos- small moments from each day- some that have inspired me, and some that I just like!
And so after a month of really struggling, as I reach the end of it, I'm once more inspired and keenly writing, long may it continue!
' Believe with all your heart that you will do what you are made to do'
Tuesday, 30 June 2015
June 2015
When I had a very slow start to the month, I thought that was a sign of how the rest of the time would go, but oh how wrong I was (glad to say!) Lots of notes for this months blog, so here goes...
Like I said, a slow start, with a good day when I wrote more on my Cornwall story, followed by not much at all for a couple of frustrating days. I had an idea for the start of a new story, but then felt that my vision was obscured and I got upset and very frustrated at feeling that I was not able to write anything, almost trying to hard and then not liking the result. It really showed me that you can't write every day if it isn't there, but that its okay, and I shouldn't beat myself up for it (although easier said than done!). Thankfully that didn't last for the whole month. Real life does though have a habit of getting in the way, or is it that I let it? I always seem to be making excuses not to write, instead of using life to help me write. I don't seem to have time at the weekends to do much, there are always jobs to do around the house, and places to visit, things that I can't do in the week (when I'm at work). That's why it's more important that I use the lunch breaks and free evenings as much as I can (and am getting better at making more time.) Saying that, a lot of this month has also been taken up with singing- extra rehearsals and a concert as well as meeting up with various people. It hasn't left as much time as I would have liked despite my best efforts, but I have to just accept that its the way things go sometimes, as long as I don't use it as too much of an excuse!
Started on a few new story ideas ( 3 in one week, got to be a first!) Funny how the thoughts come at random times, and then I'm in a hurry to remember them before I scribble them down somewhere. Mostly things pop into my head when I'm driving or in the shower, but usually when I've just turned off my light to go to sleep, annoyingly! Saying that, better to get something down rather than being kept awake by the words swimming round in my head. You just have to go with it when the inspiration hits. Its given me lots to keep busy with, and hopefully not feel too stuck on just one thing. Sometimes it can just be a small idea, a sentence or two, or maybe a paragraph, but its all good as once that seed is sown, who knows how it will grow, and at least I'm writing.
Managed to get to one Writers Group meeting this month, but came away feeling very inspired, as always. Decided to read this time as I haven't done in a while and so glad I did. Not only did it show that I was feeling a bit more confident in my writing, but it also gave me lots of positive feedback and thoughts as to what I do next. Looking over my Cornwall story, there are lots of new parts I've written, expanding on the original story, so its now a case to trying to fit things in, and that is much easier said than done. The story in its current state is so different from my original plan, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. I just need to put it all together and see where it is going before I get lost. Is it a novel?? I'm still not sure. I don't know if I have that many words in me. But I will keep writing until I feel it is finished, however long that takes, but not put the pressure on myself that it has to be a novel. I think that's the best way to be, and then I can be pleasantly surprised by the end result!
I've also started thinking and reviewing all the the many stories that I have seem to have started, but not a lot are finished! Where are they going and how long will they be? Logically, I believe they will be short stories so now I need to decide what to include and what to leave out, and actually finish one or two! That is going to be my project and aim for the next month, so the next time that I write this, I can say that I finally have some finished work (as well as other things to read at Writers Group), so wish me luck!! I've just bought a Short Story Handbook, so hopefully that will set me going in the right direction and give me lots of useful tips. I've also given in to the latest craze and bought a couple of the adult colouring books, so hope they prove to be helpful rather than just another distraction! Bought quite a few new novels too, just can't resist a new book! Plenty on the to be read pile now....
I've been trying to read a variety of authors and styles, as well as subject in order to keep my mind open and opinions broad. I'm also a strong believer that you need to read a lot in order to become a better writer, or so I keep telling myself anyway! I can read a book and feel inspired too, often gathering ideas from what I've read, so its never a waste of time in my eyes. And I'm trying my hand at writing reviews of books on the Goodreads website, to pass onto others as well as determine what it is about a book that's inspired me. I've tried to find other things too that I hope will help to inspire me. I've signed up to two more Future Learn courses, both starting in September. One is about Wordsworth, which will give me an insight into the mind of a well loved poet and his words as well as hopefully get me writing more poetry as that as fallen by the wayside since I got more involved in my many stories. The other course is all about mindfulness, the plan being that it will get me thinking better and more positively about my life, including my writing (as well as giving me more information for a story that I've started).
So as another month draws to a close, I have lots to think about and work on, Another column has been written and submitted (to come out next week), with a few future ideas already scribbled down. (At least that is a piece that I can finish!) I look forward to sharing more of my writing journey with in a few weeks time.....
Like I said, a slow start, with a good day when I wrote more on my Cornwall story, followed by not much at all for a couple of frustrating days. I had an idea for the start of a new story, but then felt that my vision was obscured and I got upset and very frustrated at feeling that I was not able to write anything, almost trying to hard and then not liking the result. It really showed me that you can't write every day if it isn't there, but that its okay, and I shouldn't beat myself up for it (although easier said than done!). Thankfully that didn't last for the whole month. Real life does though have a habit of getting in the way, or is it that I let it? I always seem to be making excuses not to write, instead of using life to help me write. I don't seem to have time at the weekends to do much, there are always jobs to do around the house, and places to visit, things that I can't do in the week (when I'm at work). That's why it's more important that I use the lunch breaks and free evenings as much as I can (and am getting better at making more time.) Saying that, a lot of this month has also been taken up with singing- extra rehearsals and a concert as well as meeting up with various people. It hasn't left as much time as I would have liked despite my best efforts, but I have to just accept that its the way things go sometimes, as long as I don't use it as too much of an excuse!
Started on a few new story ideas ( 3 in one week, got to be a first!) Funny how the thoughts come at random times, and then I'm in a hurry to remember them before I scribble them down somewhere. Mostly things pop into my head when I'm driving or in the shower, but usually when I've just turned off my light to go to sleep, annoyingly! Saying that, better to get something down rather than being kept awake by the words swimming round in my head. You just have to go with it when the inspiration hits. Its given me lots to keep busy with, and hopefully not feel too stuck on just one thing. Sometimes it can just be a small idea, a sentence or two, or maybe a paragraph, but its all good as once that seed is sown, who knows how it will grow, and at least I'm writing.
Managed to get to one Writers Group meeting this month, but came away feeling very inspired, as always. Decided to read this time as I haven't done in a while and so glad I did. Not only did it show that I was feeling a bit more confident in my writing, but it also gave me lots of positive feedback and thoughts as to what I do next. Looking over my Cornwall story, there are lots of new parts I've written, expanding on the original story, so its now a case to trying to fit things in, and that is much easier said than done. The story in its current state is so different from my original plan, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. I just need to put it all together and see where it is going before I get lost. Is it a novel?? I'm still not sure. I don't know if I have that many words in me. But I will keep writing until I feel it is finished, however long that takes, but not put the pressure on myself that it has to be a novel. I think that's the best way to be, and then I can be pleasantly surprised by the end result!
I've also started thinking and reviewing all the the many stories that I have seem to have started, but not a lot are finished! Where are they going and how long will they be? Logically, I believe they will be short stories so now I need to decide what to include and what to leave out, and actually finish one or two! That is going to be my project and aim for the next month, so the next time that I write this, I can say that I finally have some finished work (as well as other things to read at Writers Group), so wish me luck!! I've just bought a Short Story Handbook, so hopefully that will set me going in the right direction and give me lots of useful tips. I've also given in to the latest craze and bought a couple of the adult colouring books, so hope they prove to be helpful rather than just another distraction! Bought quite a few new novels too, just can't resist a new book! Plenty on the to be read pile now....
I've been trying to read a variety of authors and styles, as well as subject in order to keep my mind open and opinions broad. I'm also a strong believer that you need to read a lot in order to become a better writer, or so I keep telling myself anyway! I can read a book and feel inspired too, often gathering ideas from what I've read, so its never a waste of time in my eyes. And I'm trying my hand at writing reviews of books on the Goodreads website, to pass onto others as well as determine what it is about a book that's inspired me. I've tried to find other things too that I hope will help to inspire me. I've signed up to two more Future Learn courses, both starting in September. One is about Wordsworth, which will give me an insight into the mind of a well loved poet and his words as well as hopefully get me writing more poetry as that as fallen by the wayside since I got more involved in my many stories. The other course is all about mindfulness, the plan being that it will get me thinking better and more positively about my life, including my writing (as well as giving me more information for a story that I've started).
So as another month draws to a close, I have lots to think about and work on, Another column has been written and submitted (to come out next week), with a few future ideas already scribbled down. (At least that is a piece that I can finish!) I look forward to sharing more of my writing journey with in a few weeks time.....
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